I'm a terribly awkward, anxious and shy person (yikes...). So, I tend to be anti-social because I think I'm bad at conversations and get very sweaty... And If I do engage, I'll say sorry often because I don't know when to use the right tone or words so I may come off as rude (another yikes?) when I don't mean to.
I do want to talk; I do want to go out and have fun but...
I'm extremely self-conscious, only because of what my parents instilled into me and I let it cling onto me due to naivety and yearning for the unattainable, unconditional love.
But, I know now that that mean, little voice in my head isn't me, that I'm not a dumb person, but a human, who has dumb moments, who makes mistakes often,
who wants to feel wanted, to belong like everyone else.
Isn't that universal ?
I think I'm bad luck. No, I don't mean I'm an unlucky person (silly... I know). I won't want you to linger or be near because you'll be led to your demise.
Holding onto me is like squeezing glass.
I sell my closet, and items I've found second hand, online. (I'm like a hoarder...)
I take all the pictures myself and sometimes go live in auctions. Not often... I still get really nervous lol
I am unemployed....
I plan to add chokers and other cute items I make soon!
About Me
I also know how to crochet, knit, and overshare. I enjoy reading, writing and drawing. I'm often told I'm too "sensitive" so I shut down to avoid inconveniencing you.
I'm still trying to figure out who I am (wows?) and there's a lot that I have always wanted to share but the fear of rejection has held me back from opening up before.
If I already feel so uncomfortable in my own flesh, would this devour me even further?
Sorry, I tend to overthink a lot...
It's embarrassing to admit all this, and it's okay :)
I want you to see me completely
to understand me
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Current Albums I've been listening to:
♪ I Love My Computer ~ NinaJirachi 𖹭Fuck My Computer, All I Am, and iPod Touch are my top 3 𖹭
♪ Submarine ~ The Marías 𖹭 Ay No Puedo, Sienna, and No One Noticed 𖹭 (3 of 10 faves (ó﹏ò｡) i can't tell you how much I love The Marías. Other songs by them that i love: Nobody New, Hold It Together)
Songs:
♪ Хтс ~ ftshsm 𖹭 More good songs from them: Тусовщица, скоростная интердевочка, ночной курьер 𖹭
♪ Quintessence ~ Darkthrone 𖹭 Black Metal isn't for everyone but maybe you'd like documentaries about it (maybe i add if asked..)? 𖹭 imagine you're a knight with a big sword or something...
♪ Sorrow ~ Këkht Aräkh 𖹭 Again, a little heavy but he mainly has cute love songs 𖹭
♪ Ladies Don't Play Guitar ~ Tennis 𖹭 Yours Conditionally is my favorite album from them 𖹭
There's more but I feel like it's too much (๑﹏๑//) sorry I ramble on and on...
